Whew! Sometimes is seems as though I'm running on a treadmill that I just can't stop! And I hate treadmills! Not that I hate my life, I love my life, I am blessed beyond what I deserve that is for sure. But I do sometimes hate the constant hustle and bustle, sometimes I just want some ease. But it's kind of hard to stay frustrated when I count my blessings and see all that God has given me. I just wish I had more time to enjoy it all.
So, as with everything else in my life, when it gets too confusing, I make a list : ). Beau and I are literally going to make a list of those things we love, that make us feel fulfilled and give them a prominent place in our weekly routine. At a time when it seems as though work is running and defining our lives, and really no way to change that...what...with his commitment to the army and my baby business, we really have no choice but to committ a lot of time and effort to our careers. But no longer at the expense of our family and overall enjoyment of life.
It seems like such a simple concept, but so many of us miss out on the things we love, the things that remind us just how lucky we are, and what a blessing life is, and we trade it for constant stress and discontentment. I just don't want to be one of those people that others look at as always miserable and unhappy. I, much to my chagrin sometimes, wear my feelings all over my face. There is really no questioning my mood. So I would really like for that face to be covered with a smile moreso than a frown and worry lines on my forehead.
We'll see how it goes, but as with any problem, recognizing it and committing to change is the first step to achievement. Charlotte is growing like a weed and each day brings new and exciting discoveries for her, that's what we don't want to miss, those precious little moments. I encourage anyone who reads this to do the same. Priority doesn't always have to deal with time, it can also be your focus, attention, and commitment too.
